i lost myself.

james's really sweet & nice. on a random day of his and on a bad day of mine, he just randomly decided to blog about me. (:

now's my turn! haha.

i knew this guy in the 2nd intake of SR. he was in the same OG as i was in, Calypso 1. (: he sat beside me during "whacko" so i thought i might as well just make friends with him.

he was pretty shy at first, but when i told him that i had no intention of entering SR, we started discussing about poly life. i almost wanted to leave that very day and seek for appeals to other courses. and james asked me to tell him if i wanted to leave, cos he wanted to leave also. but we didnt leave, cos the school won't let us off.

the 2nd day, he was absent.

and on the 3rd day, he shared a secret with me. haha! about 2nd day that is. but being me, i decided to accept what has came and thus, i stayed in SR. he, left for a poly course. during the last day, i wished him all the best and share some stuffs with him. i think he was the closest friend i had in the OG during that 3 days. haha.

it's simply amazing how we managed to click off pretty well within such short time. (: now, he's in a poly. doing well i guess. and we still do keep in contact. wishing each other luck and asking about one another.

well, all the best, james.(: haha

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its been pretty bad lately.

my self esteem went downright down. plus confidence. everything.

i want to be anorexic. bulimic also can.

i want to change myself

i want my identity.